每天都在做工为了就是存钱,谁叫自己那么没用,考了三次都考不过。 几乎每天都在做工,存钱,花钱,没完没了,到底几时这个循环才会结束?希望自己的生活能有个遥控器,把那些闷的瞬间往前移,谁不希望啊?觉得生活都好不充实,怎么办呢?是时候找点事来做,让自己也有不够时间的时候了。可是我有能做什么?虽然时间好多可是,怎么连睡觉都觉得好累?啊。 或许该去做点激烈运动。 让自己真的能累一累。 暂时先笑一个吧。


My mood been going down down. I felt so hard to pick myself up from so many things. I should be positive as i used to be, but why am i being so negative? 我好希望我能说忘就忘。but i just cant do it. I should keep those things to myself, i just cant hide myself. :( grandma have not been feeling good lately, i really wish i am the one who can bear the pain for her. i been mentally tortured by so much things, what can i do to make myself happier, the best thing right now is for grandma to get well soon. I really wish that she can get well soon.

Sometime people should really keep their words, if not able to do it, do not say it out so loudly. alway thought that life can be simple, say it do it. but no, i can say out loud, but i cant do it. I use to think that i am a strong girl, but i am not. 好多事情我都会留恋,没办法做的像我说的那么潇洒,可望什么都能从来. there is no repeat mode in my life :( if there is a repeat mode, i wont say those things then. 之间也不会搞成这样。 who i am actually? what am i capable of doing? what are my emotions? isnt it hard to be a strong girl? 为什么我还要坚持我的观念?过的好辛苦。I cant seems to let go of anyone, my family, my friends, but holding on to it just felt that i am holding on to the monkey bar, using all my strength to hold on to it, to make me seems like i have a strong character but that is what i wan to potray. 可是我不想到下,不想在她们面前到下. Who can i speak to? the one i can speak to, is no longer there or i do not wish to look for them anymore? i just think that whatever they says, i clearly noe and understand. I seriously needs to learn to let go. i wish there are no more burden to add on to me. i wish i can achieve what i want. i wish we can go back to who we are. i wish for grandma and mum's health to be good. i wish life could be simple. i wish.